I'm feeling a bit down so i thought i would complain to the computer lol. I know friends come and go i know ou grow out of friends. Some of them are great stick with you through and through some of them are there for you and show it in there actions. Others arn't as good as showing it but you know. Those friends i can deal with, i understand they just the way they are but when came down to the crunch they would me there. Some friends ask for your time and then make u feel stupid or bad for asking for your time. But once again i can del with that ill just go to other friends i know will listen.

I have never been good at friendships. I know i have done some things that have lost me some of my best friends. But what i have never done even though i have considered it i have droped one of my real friends because of one stupid mistake. I think y problem is that i care and worry too much. I stick by people i should have dropped a long time ago because i think everyone is going to need someone at some point and because if stuk by them they'll come to me. But then people have said i need to stop trying to sort out everyone elses problems and sort out mine. Here's the thing i don't know how too. Helping people makes me feel better makes me feel needed, loved.

The problem is people say "It's all about you now" and it's not at all because it turns out they've used you. They want you to fix their problems and make them feel good but when it's when it's their turn to put some effert they cop out. It takes me alot to trust some one and they go and ruin it all when i have risked now i realise more important friend for their's and they throw it back in my face. I'm not sure why they did what  they did. Am i really that bad....why do people take advantage of my friendly personality. Grrrrrrrrr!!! 

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